This is the first time I have written in a couple weeks. I am currently on vacation from my job and have chosen to stay home and feel as if I a stay at home mom once again.
After a long eventful night at a toddler’s birthday party and not getting my daughter to bed until 11:30 pm, I decided to share some of what’s been going on with you.
So here I am at 12:20 am with an ice cold caffeine free root beer sharing my thoughts. I’m tired. That about sums it up. I’m plain old exhausted. And you’re probably asking “how can I be tired when I am on vacation?”. Well, I am. And I wanted to write this to you to let you know that you’re not alone.
Where have I been?
Around 4 months ago I decided I was going to work my way to quitting my day job by October. How or why I thought I was going to be able to do that in 4 short months, you got me. I thought I had everything I needed to prepare myself to blog full-time and giving my two weeks notice.
Two months into blogging I became frustrated and tired. I didn’t feel as if this was what I was supposed to be doing. That’s why I am writing this right now. To not only share with you but give it another try.
Now, although I am lacking energy I am trying to keep motivated as I have a strong desire to work from home.
Right now while I am on vacation I compiled together a lesson plan for my three-year-old to learn this week with mommy, I wanted to prepare meals in advance for 20 days, and have pretty much tried to remember what it’s like to be a homemaker but in a completely different light as now I can be grateful when I get to be at home.
What’s keeping me motivated?
I can tell you three things for sure, I can’t stand my job, I want to be home and God.
It drives me crazy every day I have to go into my job and deal with the “you’re here to make money for the owners” type of attitude. Even writing about it makes me sick to my stomach as I know my daughter appreciates more than that job ever would.
The number one thing that has got me through the frustrations as well as keeping me enduring and having hope through the challenges, is my God.
I want to make the best decisions that are going to be good for not only me but my family also. That’s why I am very cautious with my decisions. Sometimes I think I am too cautious and should take more risks. I’m working on it, so don’t judge.
What’s ahead of me?
I am not 100% sure of what’s ahead of me or what plans are laid out but one thing I am sure of is I am not going to give up. I will keep on moving even when I get tired. I am proud to be a mom even if it means doing it tired.
That’s why I want to tell all you moms whether you’re a working mom, stay at home mom, or work at home mom, please keep up the good work. Your children are watching you and you will be rewarded for a job well done. We need you here as your uniqueness brings much to the table.
It’s the mom I saw taking care of her family even after just working a graveyard shift and barely any sleep. It shows devotion and endurance even through the toughest challenges in life.
Job well done. I hope some mom somewhere would be encouraged. And if one day I can show them how they can be home to do their full-time ministry as a mom, then I will.
If you’ve been tired lately from the outer stresses of the world yet have continued to endure, please share your story!
Someone is listening.