I can tell you, it’s sure not my boss.
I have been at my job for almost two years now. That’s a long time for me as I usually have a hard time sticking to one thing for too long. I think when I found myself as a sole financial provider for my daughter I felt as if I didn’t have any other choice.
Now I do want to share with you that for quite some time I have wanted to work from home. I have always had a tough time going to a job where I was tied down to someone else’s schedule.
What am I trying to achieve?
For the past 4 months I have attempted to create a plan to quit my day job where I can stay home and build a business. I have yet to achieve this but have hope to believe that I am on my way to obtaining this dream.
It’s always been in me. Being an entrepreneur. Since I was young I was always thinking of new things I could do to make money for myself. So you ask, “What’s the problem?”. I can’t tell you right now because I am not really even sure what it is.
Four months ago I decided I would start a blog, then I began to do a little freelance work. In the midst of both I became unmotivated. How could a driven person like me possibly become unmotivated? It happened but I would like to say I am getting back on track.
Instead of worrying about what to write and how I am going to make money, I have decided to just write. I have decided to allow God to lead me while I just rest in trusting him as well as to stop being the overly idealistic person that I am.
So to answer the question…What’s kept me at my day job when I really want to quit?
It’s not really a short answer as it’s a mixture of many things. So I will go down the list in hope that you could find some encouragement if you’re dealing with some of the same things.
I need to first supplement my income
To be honest, this is the number one reason for me and many on why I haven’t yet quit my day job.
Although I have an emergency fund and I could quit today if I needed to, I have a hard time with the idea of having to dip into my savings to support me.
The fear of not being successful as my savings begins to dwindle keeps a 10 foot gap between my bank account and handing in my notice. I am pretty sure I am not the only one who feels this way.
The Fear of Failure
As I just mentioned, the fear of not being successful as I have an idealistic mindset is keeping me trapped in this pit of “your here to make money for the company” job.
The truth is staring me right in the face. I am not there to make money for the owner and if that is the mindset I being conditioned to then I want no part of it.
So you’re asking…“Why are you still at your job?”.
Of course, not having any other income in the other main reason why I haven’t left yet is I am…
There has been a lot of talk with some of my close family and friends on why I am still at this job. I struggle each day with anxiety, conflict, and constant dread. Not with the fear of being let go but to be there.
I am past that fear. The world has told people that you’re a failure if you are let go from your job. I see it as God has me exactly where I need to be at the moment and I will trust him to take care of me and my family.
I am not saying he’s going to hand me a paycheck every week but rather he knows my heart and my desire to be at home with my family and he shall direct my path .
My vacation is coming to an end and I am trying to gulp the thought of having to go back to work. Although I am dreading it I know that God is in control and he will guide me and give me what he knows I need.
What is keeping you at your job when you’re so ready to throw in the towel?