As I splurged all of my anger out tonight I shared with my mom how frustrated I was that there are non-believers who have a lot of money and myself who is doing well for his kingdom is amounting to nothing.
I’m just going to be real with you, I have always had a love for money. I have also walked down many dark places because of it. Places that no one’s daughter should ever walk down.
The love of money led me down a dark road
I have made a lot of money real fast and have also lost money in the blink of an eye. Many times I have chosen money over my only family and at times I gave it away although it was tough.
For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs. 1 Timothy 6:10
Money has been an ever-consuming stronghold in my life that has caused me to miss out on so much more that is of the utmost value. And truth be told, money is NOT it!
How would I get out of serving money?
My mom shared with me many wise words tonight all in which were biblical. No mom wants to see her daughter lose her soul to the ways of the world. I’ve been coveting. I’ve been jealous. For what?
What good is it for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul? Mark 8:36
I sat in anger as I saw a business not bringing any income in. Why God? Why would you allow these people to be rich and I have nothing.
I have so much more value than money
The truth is I have so much more value. The other people that aren’t following Christ but are overflowing in possessions, guess what, they won’t get to take it with them. It’s paper. All the riches and fame they worked so hard to get will be gone in the blink of an eye. And what do they have? Nothing.
But I then get to ask myself this question. What do I have? If I spend my life serving God by sharing His Word with others what have I gained? If I get to point one person to Jesus and that person gets saved, I will go to heaven knowing that I led someone to Christ. Now that’s value. If I continue to be a mom who has time for her child rather than being too busy chasing after the world, then my daughter will know Jesus. That’s value.
I will serve God!
This has been a long road for me. A deep and broken road that I can blame on myself for choosing. I listened to the lies and now have seen the truth. Will I love God or Money? I choose God! I choose heavenly value.
No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one or love the other, or you will be devoted to one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money. Matthew 6:24
Although I am a Christ-follower, I am not perfect. I still sin and am disobedient at times. One of my strongholds happened to be money. But I now have the opportunity to live a life of true value.
What is that one thing that is keeping you from loving God completely? Is it pride, lust, or maybe, envy? You have the opportunity to have real value. What will you choose?