When I realized I had permission to just “Be Still”
Have you ever dealt with different challenges in life where it was obvious that you were walking in your flesh? I mean everything you did while relying on your own strength left you feeling even more frustrated than before. You just couldn’t be still.
But then something happened. Now, I’m not sure where you are in your faith and relationship with Jesus but boy is it obvious when I am slipping further and further away from him. So it seems.
Well, I’ve got to admit. That was me this week.
Here was my week in a nutshell:
“Car issues!” You can say that again. No literally. This past week we have been double whammied with double trouble car troubles. Try saying that 10x fast. One vehicle was so old that I just about had it. So I sold it figuring the second car would have fewer issues. Boy, was I wrong! We originally were going to sell both vehicles at once thinking we had another one in place. That didn’t work as planned and we end up selling the oldest car and keeping the second one until we bought a new car. In this past week, I have realized the second car has just as many issues that could even be more costly than the first car. And now on top of making sure we have a driveable car, we are on a hunt for a newer car. That’s a whole different ball game.
So you ask,
“What do your car troubles have to do with your faith and relationship with Jesus”?
And I would tell you, “Everything”!
The reason for my answer would be as follows:
In this past week I have been nothing but frustrated. Something as worthless as a car has caused me to slip into a selfish behavior that I thought was gone along time ago. I have allowed it to cause conflict in my family which is more valuable than any car could ever be. It comes to show what can happen when you’re trying to take the wheel and push Jesus into the driver’s seat. It just doesn’t work.
And I can tell you from experience it will never work. No matter how much you believe you got a hand on things, you will always need Jesus. We are fallible human beings with emotions that run us because we allow them too. When are we going to instead walk in the spirit and allow the fruits of the spirit to fill us?
Do you want to know what conclusion I came to?
In my mind, I have been conditioned to think that I need to have two cars to be happy. Even one car really. So I decided that I was going to give myself permission to stay home. That throughout the week that my husband is working he would take the car and I will stay home. And on his days off is when I would go grocery shopping and any other outings. When I came to this conclusion I knew exactly what I needed to do.
And it was summed up into two beautiful words found in Psalm 46:10,
I have heard these words throughout my life and always passively said, “Ok God I’ll be still” all while my being still lasting a short two seconds just so I could get moving again. But this time I felt different.
I finally understood what it meant to be still and was so excited that I had permission to do just that. Not to be lazy, not to let go of my responsibilities, but instead, let go of taking control. To give complete control over to God where it should have been, to begin with.
None of us were meant to do life alone
Jesus says in Matthew 11:28-30,
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
How awesome is this to know that God has not only given you permission to be still but also to rest. Oh boy, do I have a heavy burden lifted off of me.
Whatever troubles you’re facing right now I want you to try something. All I ask is that you stop for a second and ask yourself if you are clenching the wheel and trying to move all while God is saying “Be still and know that I am God”. Will you choose to be still?
Until next time. But for now, read through his strength not my own.