Welcome to My Story Defined.
My name is Lorin, a wife, mom, and woman of faith who is far from perfect but has a God who is. Here you will find real life stories of how God is working in my faith, marriage, parenting, relationships, and anywhere else he sees fit. The purpose of me sharing my story with you is to show others that they are not alone. That even in the midst of our struggles we can have hope found in Jesus.
Now to every story, there is a beginning. I was born in 1990 in Florida but shortly after landed in Las Vegas, NV. Soon after that, my parents were divorced when I was about 6 years old. I could say it didn’t impact me since I was young but I would probably be lying. I didn’t know at the time the effects divorce could have on a family.
After my parents were divorced I lived with my mom the majority growing up. We moved quite a bit. I started to experience extreme anxiety with attending school especially due to all the bullying I experienced. Bullying is no joke and can definitely take a toll on any child. I wanted so much to fit in and have friends but never understood why I seemed to be rejected. Once I turned 16, dating would now enter the equation. After at least seven moves, 8 schools, and my first breakup later, we were heading back to Las Vegas again and things were about to take a big turn.
Things were about to take a big turn
Although I had not been in church since I was little I still always wanted to make the right decisions as it was important to me. But things seemed different now. I was now starting my senior year in high school where I would have the opportunity to make a grand entrance and that is exactly what I did. Not even thinking of all the consequences I would face and turmoil I would cause.
The innocent girl I always held onto would now be next to nothing. I instead would now cover myself with the ways of the world. Within months of being back to Las Vegas, I got involved in smoking and drinking for the first time. This continued throughout my last year of school along with sneaking out of my house, lying to my parents, and being promiscuous. Graduation rolled around in 2008 and although my character was out of place my academics were far from struggling. I graduated with a 3.5 GPA and an advanced diploma. It didn’t motivate me much as my indecent choices would continue.
Was it worth it
I was 18 and thought I was on top of the world. I was getting more and more involved in drinking to the point of being hospitalized, taking different drugs, and even got involved in the adult entertainment industry. It had to all eventually come to an end you would say. Either through a physical death or dying to self.
I already believed Jesus was my savior but was far from following him. Through everything and inching my way towards deeper waters it always seemed that I couldn’t get too far. I got married in 2012 and had our first child in 2013. My pregnancy was a difficult experience as I dealt with daily depression and anxiety. My marriage was not very glamorous either. To escape reality I would again fall back into my old beaten path. In the midst of my multiple backslides there was always a small tugging that would always seem bring me back to the truth. I believed it was the Holy Spirit’s still small voice.
Would I now face divorce
By July 2014, my husband and I separated and he had moved out of state. Many family members were extremely generous to help me during that time. I started to put my trust in God and my relationship with Jesus grew. I would now be attending church on a weekly basis where even in the midst of my trials I was not giving up.
A year later, my husband returned back to Las Vegas where we stayed separated for the next 2 years. Divorce was available but was not a feasible option. I knew that divorce would only cause more issues so I chose to stay still and endure through our separation. I continued relying on Jesus to get me through.
Saved by grace
My husband and I attended counseling throughout the next two years and by the grace of God reunited in April 2017. I am grateful to say that we are now on this walk together and my daughter is learning to know and love Jesus.
Although I still face struggles daily I can truly say that my old lifestyle is in the past. I have been set free. My chains are broken. My hope is in Christ alone.
Romans 5:3-4 says,
Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.
Now as I said before, I am not perfect and don’t have all the answers. But I have a God who is defining my story for me and would love if you’d tag along for the ride. Give him the pen and see all that he is capable of. You will be amazed.